50 shades.

I'm over all the hype on the Fifty Shades of Grey movie.  MOVIE. It's not a pornography, people. GET OVER YOURSELVES!

People are so quick to judge, standing in their glass houses (that's a sin, by the way).

I've read many reviews, Facebook statuses, tweets about this topic. It all boils down to this:  if you're a Christian and you go see the movie, I promise you'll still be a Christian when the movie is over and for anyone to say that Christians shouldn't see the movie - BACK.OFF. Are you perfect? That's like saying if you listen to certain types of songs, read books, have road rage, think bad thoughts about people, (the list goes on) that you aren't a Christian anymore. This is ridiculous.  Everyone sins. Heck, I disobeyed one of the 10 Commandments (I bet you have too) and guess what? I'm still a Christian. Surprising, huh? not really. Go see the movie, or don't. Your choice, and people shouldn't judge you regardless of what you choose.

Hopefully these people that are giving their "opinion" have read the book, because otherwise, what are you going by? It's an actual story and a fairly good one at that. I'm actually not looking forward to seeing it, mainly because I'm afraid it will be a letdown from the book; and there's 3 books people. Get over yourself, be a mature Christian and keep your opinions to yourself.

You're judging (sin).

Numbers.

I have an obsession with numbers. It can be overwhelming at times. Today it is unbearable. I do this thing where I worry about money, obviously. I would love to think that everyone has this problem. If not, don't tell me about it, let me stay in my fantasy world. ..

I add up license plate numbers and house numbers on mailboxes. To get one digit. It's ridiculous. (Don't worry, I've asked for medication. He won't budge.)

Today it's more about day to day operations though, and the fact that in the very near future we will be paying for college for Madison. She's going to college. There is no doubt in my mind that she will be successful in life. We will help her.  We will.

Is there ever really enough? I don't think so. Luckily, we aren't victims of credit card debt and for that I am thankful.

I received a call from a friend this morning that reminded me things could be worse. And to be thankful for all that I have, because it truly is enough.

Life.

I'm better at random ramblings than organized paragraphs. So here we go -

My sister started a blog. It's actually pretty good. I've taught her well I guess. You can read it here. www.makingtheswitchmom.wordpress.com

It's a pulic blog, she's trying to make herself famous. Pump her up, ya'll. Read it. It's real. Maybe I should make mine public, turn this in to a competition of sorts....I'll think about it.

I've decided that I no longer want any hard feelings, malice, anything like that in my world. I don't like to be mad at people, I don't want anyone mad at me, it takes too much energy to keep up with all that and I don't have enough energy for extra stuff. Some may say I forgive too easily. That may be. I just don't want to fight.  I have said this 525,600 times but I can't make anyone like me or hang out with me. You either do or you don't and that is fine. I don't always like to hang out anyway, you're probably doing me a favor! LoL

Damion is home from Switzerland and Austria. He leaves again in 2 weeks. The break is kinda nice, I am sure that he would agree - except for the part about how he only gets one blanket and one pillow in the "hotel" in Switzerland. That part he hates.

Madison texted me this morning to tell me she hates school, she wants everyone to shut up and she wants to go home.   Ditto my firstborn, I feel ya. But things could be much worse, which I told her, in different words of course. She didn't reply.

Tiff and I are going to see New Kids on the Block, TLC and Nelly in Charlotte in June. I CAN NOT WAIT!!! The last concert was one of the best nights of my life, and I think she would agree. We had a good time (with great seats)!

A question I've thought a lot about lately and just been afraid to talk about is this - Can you have more than one best friend? My answer is yes. There are certain people that know your depeest, darkest secrets and there are others that you choose to do things with; go to a movie, shopping or out to dinner. But who do you call when you're distressed, sad or lonely? There should be only one person. Right? Let me know what you think. I'm an open book so anyone can be my "bestie' at any given moment, LoL. I'm working on that ;)

Random thoughts

I've had a lot on my mind lately, with no real outlet  -  or desire to let it out, I guess... so this will be random, flowing thoughts, it probably won't make sense and I do not care.



Finally remembered to bring a different coffee mug to work today. It was the only reminder, and now it's gone.

Damion leaves for Switzerland and then Austria in 2 days, for 10 days.

American Sniper might be the best movie I've ever seen. You could've heard a pin drop in the theater when it was over. No one said a word.

This Is Where I Leave You is the worst movie I've ever seen. Had to make myself watch it.

It's okay to say no. Tell people the truth, they would rather be hurt by that than lied to.

I'm too old for drama, of any kind. Let our children have their own friendships, their own arguments, and remain neutral. It's too messy and deep otherwise.

Words hurt. I try my best to ignore them. I know the truth and that is all that matters.

I miss my sister.

People do, and will, hurt you on purpose. My skin is thickening.

Trust no one.

Memories fade.

I'm getting SO good at Pinterest dinner recipes. I'm actually pretty proud of myself.

Sometimes I wish I had more than one CLOSE friend. Sometimes.

I'm reading more. Watching less TV.

It is true that bad things happen to good people.

It takes life changing moments to change you as a person. As silly as it sounds, Madison's broken arm changed me and of course my grandmother dying had an effect.

Life is too short to be frustrated, sad, and disappointed all the time.

You can't make anybody be your friend. And why would you even want to try?

TEMPORARY life changing moments

I say TEMPORARY because it is. and I KNOW that. But right now it's a big deal and I'm frustrated. 2 weeks ago today (on the first day of school), Madison fell at cheer practice. Broke her humerus, in 2 places. It's only been 14 days. Yes I know it could be worse. Yes I know there are people starving in Africa and it's "only a broken arm". But it isn't. Did I mention it's her right arm? So here's a list of the things she can't do:  take a shower (I bathe my 16 year old daughter daily), do her homework, get dressed, drive, do anything physical outdoors, exercise, carry her book bag, fix her hair, CHEER (because that truly is her life).  Here's a list of the things she can do with one hand: text, eat, read, type (using her face). Here's a list of the things she isn't doing: asking for help. Forget about the physical pain for 2 seconds. This child has waited her whole entire life to cheer for varsity. She didn't even make it to the first game. I know things happen for a reason. I understand all that. But right now, I just want to complain. Somewhere where someone can't tell me it could be worse, try to see the positive side. No. Try telling Madison that.

Hannah

Blogger isn't working on my computer, frustrating. So I'm using my phone. I found out this morning that Emma-Leigh's friend Hannah has lung cancer, 40 tumors in her lungs. This isn't good and I'm devastated. Please pray for her entire family. This isn't on Facebook because it isn't my place to post their information so please also respect that. You may remember me posting about Hannah before, if not see my post from 8/9/10 and 10/11/10, just please include them in your prayers, as if they haven't been thru enough. Breaks my heart.

Lucky

Lucky - having or marked by good fortune.

The other day I posted this picture to Instagram with a caption that read - I don't consider myself lucky. Maybe I'm just keeping the bad luck away.

I wanna retract that statement.

I am lucky. Good things don't necessarily happen to me, but neither do bad things. I have been very fortunate that my family is healthy. I have lost one grandfather, two uncles, and one man that was very special to my family. Everyone else is still living. That's kind of rare. And while my relationship with Damion isn't like the ones you read about on Facebook, at least we're together. That's actually saying a lot given the circumstances and the fact that most of Madison & Emma-Leigh's friends have broken families. My parents are still together - and for that I feel very lucky. We may not have a ton of money to do an excess amount of "fun" stuff (like you read about on Facebook) but my girls still have everything they need and want, still get to do most everything they want to do, and for that, they are lucky. And though we all have busy schedules and I barely see any of them, I still have friends. Some pretty good ones. That's lucky. And when I can start out my Monday morning with this smiling face ~

Then we're ALL extremely lucky!